For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.
To say this year was a test is definitely an understatement. I can’t even put the stress of this year into words so i’ll try putting it in picture
By June I was running on a chicken wing and a prayer. Most of the things I wanted to get done within these last 12 months got put on the back burner:
- I didn’t lose any weight
- I’m not pulling in as much as I’d like from other streams of income
- I did not go one 1 date this year
- I didn’t buy a condo like I wanted
- My savings are nowhere near as much as I’d like them to be
I feel life I kind of lost myself in all of the chaos that was 2017. I will say I did try to stop and make sure I was taking care of myself. I realized I really needed to make time for me when I told someone I needed a break and their response was “SO”.
I couldn’t believe it. I’m taking all this time away from myself and what I need to make sure you’re okay and you don’t even care. This is when I realized, “other than the Lord himself, no one will take better care of you than you” I also realized that you teach people how to treat you based on how you treat yourself. Why would someone make you a priority when you don’t even make you a priority.
Now I sat here complaining for a minute about the things that didn’t go right for me this year and then I was reminded “hey chick, did you forget about the good things?
- I didn’t gain any weight
- I’m starting to make money from blogging and instagram
- I find myself being more and more okay with letting people go
- My friends are BOMB.COM
- I think i’m finally getting the hang of this adulting thing
Maybe, the things that did not happen, didn’t happen for a reason. Maybe I’m not dreaming big enough. See me and God have this pattern. I see something I want to happen, I get upset when it doesn’t happen, then God gives me something far better than I wanted. For instance, in 2014 I lost my job because the place I was working at closed. I interviewed for a popular company in my area. This was one of those places everyone wants to work. I’m thinking “okay God, I know you’re not gonna leave me hanging” and then I got the call that I didn’t get the job. I was confused. The interview went well, I had the experience and more than enough education. but God said NO. So I continued to apply for jobs and someone told me about this place that was hiring doing something I’ve never done before. I told myself there was no use in applying but something said apply and I did. Of course that’s the job I got. It was funny because the job I knew I couldn’t get I got. On top of that it was a job working fewer hours but making more money than the job I really wanted. So for me when I have these moments where it seems like thee answer to every prayer is No I get excited because I know God has something far better than I could imagine.
Now for a moment of clarity. I have to take some responsibility for some of the things I didn’t accomplish. While I may not have had time to go to the gym I definitely could have eaten better. And I’m not gonna act like I didn’t add anything to my wardrobe and makeup collection. We have to remember to honestly reflect on the things that haven’t gone our way and say”what could I have done to make things better”?
So while this year ALMOST SUCKED, I’ll quote Brandy in saying ALMOST DOESN’T COUNT and say this year was a year of learning and growth.
What have you learned from 2017? What do you hope to accomplish in 2018?
Peace, Love, and Blessings